Thinking....

Today I'm thinking about how impulsive we are sometimes when we get emotional. It's almost as though all sense is lost when that burst of emotions comes, and we make some moves, we hurt some people that we later regret. For me it was a mail I sent two days ago in rather an impulsive state. An anger fluttered in me, I didn't know what to do about it, I wrote this mail and even though some part of me told me to just sit on it, the "Send" button was pressed. After that ofcourse....the other person's emotions were gravely hurt, alot of restlessness created in both minds and I thought to myself why is it that even being so aware, we sometimes do such silly things out of a compulsion.
In my head it was probably the best thing to do at the time, but somewhere it was also a way of disturbing the other person's peace of mind because my own had been disturbed. But I realized, that hurting that person only hurt myself in the end. Maybe somewhere I felt that without this person feeling the same emotion that I was, they wouldn't be able to empathize with me. Later on when I reflected I realized, when in anger towards someone, we almost unconciously want to hurt that person in some way. It is such a strong need in us that we make attempts to do it in the most grossest of ways. How difficult it is to be in complete control of ourselves when someone hurts us or we get angry. Infact, anger and hurt are so closely connected themselves...usually found together. I feel sad today for what happened......I guess after anger and hurt are gone...they leave a numbing sadness which fills me today.