On coming back home....

Unsure of what all has happened i find myself today,
Like in a daze, yet very alert, rare thoughts come my way.
Music soothes my soul, an intense love fills my heart,
So beautiful everything all around, of everything I find myself a part.

A new journey getting ready to embark,
A strange peace fills my being, lighted with a new spark.
Calmness set in as with my heart in sync I feel,
Resistance less today, gone is a layer of the peel.

Questions, uncertainities, annoyances easier to let go,
Giving myself the time i need, letting myself move slow.
Accepting the losses, life for whatever it has been,
In a new light myself and others I have seen.

I just got back from Coimbatore today. Back in Delhi at home for sometime. There's a strange kind of acceptance and calm in me that almost seems unfamiliar. For almost as long as I remember there was almost so much turmoil and conflict within me, almost like I was searching, searching, searching all the time. I was looking for something that I could never find and was always so restless within myself.
It is for the first time that I feel I have found what I have been looking for forever, I have found that which gives me the peace I have always been looking for. Part of me knows that it is not an easy decision to go live away in the school in Coimbatore. But the other part of me knows that that's exactly what I have to do. It is where I find myself alive and on fire. My heart burns with a desire to bring that little difference in a child's life and I know this place gives me the freedom to learn and do exactly that.
I feel so grateful today to the universe for taking me on paths completely unknown. And a very real realization has come that the more we jump into the unknown, the more we feel the fear and do it anyway...the more something bigger than we can imagine is there with us, holding our hand each step of the way.