Mirror Mirror on the wall...

I'm feeling kinda tired today..... I feel physical fatigue usually stems more from the unconcious or sometimes even concious mental thought process. So I'm trying to look a little deeper and see what is it that my mind is busy processing. On the surface the thoughts have become a lot fewer, in fact the bliss of no thoughts is also felt in some moments.... But on scratching the surface I find there are some thoughts that you are not even concious about.
I'm looking around thinking.....I have been through quite a bit in the past 10 days since I've been here. I feel a lightness in myself...kind of this strange ease that sets in sometimes....this ease of living that I had never experienced before. This ease doesn't come from lack of stress, or no problems, or a simple living...this ease comes from a state of being where you just are...and only that moment in time matters. Your body feels lighter, your mind afar and you are there....a beautiful feeling.
In fact today as I was going to dry the clothes i had washed earlier in the morning I thought to myself....and there I could be working with a good company, with the ease of a washing machine, a condominium which I had once wanted to have....and here I am....why am I putting myself through such discomfort when I have all it takes to be out there? And I knew the answer was very clear.... it was the peace that it brought, the ease it brought to your walk, to your talk...it relieved you of so many burdens we carry. There are many stresses here...anywhere a mind walks, there is stress....but here one isn't being able to cover them up, run from them....here theres always a mirror infront of you...face yourself....."mirror mirror on the wall, show me what's hidden within, show me it all...." And on looking at oneself all the time...one gets to know oneself more and more and in that slowly comes freedom....
I look around and admire these people who have surrendered their whole lives to a cause....they are only working, some of them even forget to eat or sleep...so involved in their work are they. Such peace has been found within, that all the time that we humans tend to eat away thinking, or talking or feeling down...that finds no place here.....they are simply doing what needs to be done.... Alot of perceptions, ideas are changing within...I am taking it easy on myself....removing any kind of expectations. I am letting life take its course.....I too in the time being am trying to do what is required....