So long I have been longing,
Yet this mad world made me a madman too.
Running fast, racing to the top, has left me more exhausted than ever before.
What was it that I was seeking? What was it that I was searching for?
Searching for expansion, yet caught up in my own misery.
Sitting face to face with myself today, realize that there is nowhere to go,
Have paid the price of peace, for all my desires, all my stupid thoughts.
I look outside, the plants just sit, the clothes just hang from the wire.
The trees just stand, the flowers just bloom, but I am going mad.
What to do next? Where to go now? What am I to do today for tomorrow?
Should I do this? or maybe that? What is it that I should do?
Let me look this up, let me try this out, is this better for me or that?
Have I made a mistake, I'm sure I was better there, where should i be oh god.
This calculating mind I could not see, today I catch a glimpse,
For each thing it does the profit and loss is calculated first.
If I do this what if I'm left behind, if I do that what should i do?
Why can't I just live for once, without the constant how, when, why's.
It's been too long since I looked inside,
Outside I looked for happiness too long.
In the gratification, in the highs of life too long have I tried to find myself.
I see these people, I talk to them, they bore me more and more,
Those petty talks, those half witted jokes, just living life in its mediocrity.
They walk around sometimes up, sometimes down,
Unwilling to look deeper and deeper within.
Their laughs half hearted, their excitement from their accomplishments,
Half asleep, half alive, am I turning myself like that too?
What trap is it that I have weaved? Why is it so hard to break free?
Maybe I've just gone mad I tell myself.
These birds in the trap with me think this is their world,
What to do when you have tasted the bliss of the other side?
Oh heart of mine help me break free,Have lived in the confines of this cage too long.